i’m staring at her. she’s laying in our bed, burying herself in the pillows, then peeking out to make sure i’m still watching her. and she’s smiling. that smile. i never knew what that smile would mean, or that anyone’s smile COULD mean so much. it is the entire world squeezed into a single tiny body. she is my best day. my dream. my weekend. she is my wild & crazy. my favorite cuddle. she is my light. my arms are hers to hold. as a reminder that this body is truly not mine anymore & that everything i do now will be for her, I decided to do this:
it is her birthdate. it will be a constant reminder to be selfless for her sake. to play when she wants to play, even if i am tired. to read to her when she hands me a book, even if i’ve already read it 100 times. to hold her when she wants to be held & let her go when she wants to explore. to love her every day of my life. it is also a reminder of my husband, who gave me this great gift. it’s written in his handwriting. they will both be with me wherever i go. this person i am now, and this place where i live. it’s where i was always meant to be. they are my best adventure.