yesterday we decided it was a perfect day (80 degrees, really september?!) to ride the ferry. madison loves the water so i told her we were going to ride ON the water. she seemed excited & confused at the same time. i wasn’t even exactly sure where we were going but i figured downtown, towards brooklyn. we ended up in dumbo for the day & low and behold there was an arts festival going on. what a great day for an adventure.
and rode jane’s carousel on the waterfront. she saw it & just kept saying pony pony pony. of course as we started to move she was holding on as if her life was at risk saying, nice pony, nice pony. pure terror & excitement rolled up into one.
breakfast at starbucks, she loves the blueberries that are meant for the oatmeal but they sell them to us anyways. thanks goodness or she’d be screaming booberry booberry at them until they did. i settle for a vanilla macchiato. heaven.
took the ‘choo choo’ to the city. she insists on sitting by herself, even though she slides around like the seats are made of butter. i have to keep a protective arm around her without her noticing that i am helping her. because she doesn’t need any help, duh mom.
then pre-church browsing at bloomies, she loves the colors at ted baker just as much as i do. she also spied a mini longchamp cosmetic bag she almost didn’t let me leave without. with the help of two sales ladies & a little brown bag we finally coaxed it out of her grubby hands (good luck to her future husband…)
then sunday school playtime with her friends. ‘mommy church’ for me as she calls it. the message on grace unbounded hit home, as it always does here. it’s my favorite church i have ever had the privilege of attending or being a member of. every message, every sunday, speaks to me. yesterday was all about grace & about Paul’s letters from prison on joy, hope & love (the beginning of our series on this). we need to be more grateful for the things we have and less inclined to think we deserve more. our neediness often overpowers us, when we in actuality have everything we need right in front of us.
Here’s the thing we say in this sanctuary: whether you’ve been part of the faith family your whole life or a late arriving newbie, we stand equally naked before God in our neediness. That sensibility permeates our life and our work. That’s the sensibility we’re meant to learn in here and take back out into the world. That’s the gospel that’s brimming with grace and generosity and drives us to live lives committed to growing closer and closer to God’s design specifications. That’s the grace, the call and the responsibility. It’s awesome, fantastic and the engine that can drive the world’s transformation.
post-church cupcakes at sprinkles. madison is also apparently the cupcake atm gatekeeper. she seriously wouldn’t leave. she kept saying “more cheese” so i kept snapping her photo.
we then walked through 3 parades and danced in the streets together. twirling. whenever the music started she grabbed both my hands & that was my cue to dance like a monkey. nobody noticed us. we aren’t weirdos. just two girls having fun.
and then this… fried chicken & biscuits for lunch. the whole shebang today.
time square toys r us. enough said = chaos + bliss + lots of “no put that back” and of all the barbies in the barbie castle madison picked out entrepreneur barbie. that’s right baby girl, go change the world.
took the choo choo back home for a long long nap (for both of us). this is my perfect day lately. letting madison explore the world. she loves to be outside with people and i dread the long winter ahead of us. we are holding onto fall & have lots in store for the new few months.
xo from the big city
I rushed home after work Friday to find brian lounging on the couch watching sports. not bubble guppies. not wearing a pink foam crown coloring. not with obstacles blocking my way every three feet including baby strollers, books, Minnie mouse figurines, ball pit balls or stray mac & cheese noodles. I found brian being brian, and I got really super excited. like silly grin on my face excited. “what do you want to do tonight?” was thrown around and options starting flying. how do you fit in everything you’ve wanted to do for months into 48 hours? we settled on dinner (at bareburger) my favorite spot. we ate french fries without having to blow on them for 45 hours to feed Madison first. we ate them scalding hot & they burned my fingers & my throat and I loved it. I shoveled chipotle mayo into my mouth out in the open without fear of baby seeing what I was eating and protesting to have the same thing. I had a watermelon moonshine cocktail – I had MOONSHINE – knowing it would be okay to be a little hazy later when I got home. there would be no middle of night wake up call I would have to attend to. and we had a conversation that didn’t consist of “what does a bear say” and diapers and daycare. we sat an extra long time at the table just because we could. we didn’t have to get the check when the meal was sent out because once baby girl is done she is DONE and ready to go. we relaxed. and it was glorious. after dinner we had so many big ideas like the movies, because lets be honest it costs us $200 to go to the movies these days, or out for drinks or home…. should we go home? get a 6 pack & go home to watch a movie? SOLD! I tell you SOLD! we held hands… this was monumental. and we purchased craft beer we have been wanting to try and we cuddled up on the couch for a movie. it was the greatest night. Ohhhh, one more thing WE SLEPT INNNNNNNN. like past 9am, we actually got to the bagel store when it was packed with the hangover crowd. I liked being the crowded line. it was a glimpse into our former lives. just a peek back into the days where we were the only things that mattered in our world. and then we got all dressed up & headed to an engagement party for our two good friends Jackie & Anthony.
Anthony is Brian’s partner & Jackie is my old roommate. we hooked them up. it was like how about our two best friends be in love so we can all be best friends & have a big best friend party. and maybe our babies can be best friends, or get married… and well, you see where my mind goes. in any case – cha ching – we succeeded on our second match making attempt with a second wedding (the first being brian’s old partner pat & beth). pretty sure I should be getting paid for my services. and when Anthony gets promoted to Sgt. we will be taking applications for Brian’s new partner (email me for inquiries) but I guess seeing my friends incredibly happy is a gift enough. & I couldn’t be more excited for these two! the party was at a waterfront restaurant in jersey city called Battello. it was gorgeous and all my JC friends should check it out.
but when all was said & done, no matter how much I sometimes miss our old life & schedule I couldn’t go any more days without seeing this face…
I missed this face. SO much. it was a wonderful weekend, but I wouldn’t trade 1 million of those for 1 more day with her. it’s funny how even after just a few hours of fun you start to think that you’d never want to go back. I love our longer, crazier days. I love having two little arms draped around my neck. she tethers me to reality and to a happiness I never would have thought was possible before I met her. a weekend is a very long time sans baby. it’s too long. but the hugs & kisses upon your return are the greatest moments. she ran to me, and she wrapped those little arms around me and said “i miss you” and just like that, the world became a little bit clearer. i looked up & silently thanked God for this tiny blessing, that has changed everything.
and an extra special thank you to brian’s family for taking care of madison this weekend! you guys are simply the best!
these chilly mornings have me all excited. like back flips & pumpkin lattes & fur excited. I can’t wait to unbox all my fall clothes and hold them in my arms. it’s possible i’ll even stroke a fur lined hood or two and of course…. i’ll probably need a new coat (new year new coat, right?) these are some of my favorites right now, and a few are on sale too “HOORAY”
1.) Zara fur vest with knit lining 2.) Zara down anorak 3.) Asos faux fur collar parka 4.) Piperlime sherling aviator jacket 5.) Asos trapeze coat 6.) Michael Kors houdstooth faux fur coat 7.) Barney’s hooded sweater coat 8.) H&M wool duffel coat
she thought her mom looked like a queen, like the star of some fairy tale. not a princess – princesses are just pretty. her mother was beautiful.
i was sitting here thinking of my mom this morning & this quote couldn’t have described more perfectly how i feel about her. how we all do. i wish that even for one day she could see herself through our eyes, so she could understand. but the truth of the matter is it’s hard to age gracefully. i even struggle with it myself at 30. but we must all remember it’s a privilege denied to many. so let us be grateful for each waking day that we get to live. let us rejoice in our memories. let us pray that we get older & older so that we can create more. and let us remember that every line that forms on our face should merely indicate where the smiles have been. if there was one wish i could wish for my mom it would be this, and to know she is so very beautiful.
this past weekend we had todd’s wedding & i think it started to hit her that her babies aren’t babies anymore. and she realized that time has passed by more quickly than she realized. that we all have our own families now. and he completed his saturday with ashley. who finally, FINALLY is officially my sissy. boy did it take him long enough (even longer than Brian, OY). but we couldn’t be happier for them. this face, says it all from my mom….
and for me, i couldn’t be happier for my big brother. i have never seen him happier. ashley has loved todd even at times when he probably didn’t deserve it. she has stood by him over the years through a LOT, she has accepted his kids as if they were her own and she has loved all of them with a tenderness you can’t even imagine – i truly believe she is the best thing to happen to them, all of them. i love her for this. and we are very grateful for her & happy to welcome her into our family officially (because really she’s always been apart of it). so here’s to a lifetime of happiness for them and many more memories with our families to come.
i love you both & enjoy your honeymoon ((make a baby!!)) xx
this urban princess runs around a concrete jungle day in & day out. her daddy is her prince. but they are friends with dragons. she believes in fairy tales, and swears she always will. she loves to dance under the stars. she hosts tea parties and invites all her dolls & sometimes even the cookie monster. she picks flowers. and sometimes eats them. she twirls. she giggles. she gives herself kisses in windows and says “i madison.” she thinks the rain is funny. she sings songs and her smile melts my heart. she is fearless and curious and wild. i hope that all her dreams come true.
i tell my daughter every single day she’s pretty. I want her to know this. I want her to love every single hair on her head, and know that everything she will someday see as an imperfection, I will always view as flawless. I don’t want her to get too caught up on what she thinks she ‘should’ look like. I want her to love herself. and I don’t just want her to actually BE pretty I want her to FEEL pretty. always. I want her to be confident but not side on arrogant. I hope that she will enjoy being a girl, not feel that she is expected to do things a certain way. I don’t want her to ever feel prejudged based on her looks. I want her to go easy on herself. we are, after all, our own worst critic. and I want the man that she will inevitably fall in love with someday to tell her she is beautiful every single day also, for me, because at a certain point I realize my words won’t mean as much to her as they do now. I want him to love every imperfection the way that I do. to see her flawlessly. because at a certain point, his validation will be everything to her. not mine. so for now, I want to fill her head with so much love that when we reach that point, she will have such a friendship with herself that she will be strong & confident. I want her to do all the things I can not seem to do for myself. I want her to be better than me. and I want to start following my own mother’s advice. to be kinder to myself. to realize I’ve had a baby & I’ve reached 30 & that time will creep up on us even if we aren’t ready for it. and to know that she still loves every single hair on my head. that she will always be my one constant. and that if I ever have a doubt in my head about my worth, or if I am down on myself, she is there to pull me out of it. there isn’t another relationship in the world, like the one you share with your mother. and so I hope that my baby girl hears that she is pretty & loved just a little TOO much, so that it sticks. so that it becomes second nature for her. so that she loves herself completely & entirely. and that she knows she is so very worthy of this.
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i have become an crazy coffee drinker over the years. I remember not understanding why my parents guzzled down so many cups of that dark bitter liquid and i tried it once only to gag & never make the mistake again. however, after joining the ‘real world’ and now having a baby, I have a better understanding & a greater appreciation of the caffeine packed magic drink. i have 1-2 cups a day now (sometimes 3… terrible I know) and my keurig mini coffee maker is probably the most functional gift that Brian has ever gotten me. it’s probably mad at me for using it so often. and we have standard white. they didn’t have all the fun colors that they have now!!! i want to get a new one in pink for my office. my latest k-cup obsession is the cinnabon coffee, I mean really?! it’s delicious. & you can currently save $2 on any k-cup beverage pack with code AUGSAVE. but where was I going with this?! oh yeah — one of my favorite engagement / wedding gifts for couples is a set of coffee mugs or tea cups. these adorable sets would be a great gift for any duo. so if you know some engaged coffee fiends check these out.
1.) good morning beautiful/handsome mugs 2.) I love you/I know mugs 3.) hubs/wifey mugs 4.) mustache/kiss mugs 5.) monogram mugs 6.) monogram mugs 7.) bride/groom cup + saucer set 8.) wifey/hugs mugs 9.) I do/me too mugs 10.) mr./mrs. vintage teacups 11.) mrs. fancy pants/mr. handsome mugs